FIRST LIFETIME Reading

This reading shares about miscarriage, if this is triggering to you, please do not continue.

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As soon as I entered her energy and Anne asked if spirit would show a past life that has some resonance with this life, something really strange happened. I went into what felt like a womb. Just... floating. Waiting.

I told Anne, "I don't understand, I'm not going anywhere. It's like I'm stuck."

No sooner had I said that when I felt this EXPULSION. Like being pushed out, but violently. And I said, "Miscarriage."

Then I waited to see what was next. And again - I was pulled back into a womb. Just floating there. Waiting.

Then again: EXPELLED. "Miscarriage."

It happened again. And again. And again.

Anne was SHOCKED. I could feel her energy shift on the other end of the zoom. And I hated it. I hated saying "miscarriage" over and over. It felt awful coming out of my mouth.

But spirit kept showing me the same pattern. Enter the womb. Wait. Get expelled. Over and over.

Finally I asked spirit to show me what was going on behind all these miscarriages. What was happening that I wasn't seeing?

And what I felt was ANXIETY. Horrible, overwhelming anxiety. Like absolute terror of coming into human form.

The Question

Anne asked, through spirit, "Is this her first life?"

I heard YES in my spirit ear. The rods swung to YES.

That's when it clicked. She wasn't backing out because something was wrong. She was backing out because she was terrified. This essence had never been human before and kept changing her mind at the last second.

Multiple times.

Finally, she made it through. But she brought all that anxiety with her.

This Lifetime - The Anxiety

When I finally felt pulled into THIS lifetime, it was just... anxiety. Everywhere. Constant.

Spirit then pulled me UP - into her spirit guide - to give some guidance. And her guide said, through me:

"Go easy. Just make small decisions. Choose your socks - what socks feel best today? Wear those. Choose which toothpaste tastes or feels best in your mouth. Make decisions that feel best to you in the moment and go with that. We are here. Just be easy on yourself."

The entire reading just went from one small decision to another. What to eat. What to wear. Whether or not to cut her hair. All these tiny, manageable choices.

Because this lifetime is her first, it's best to just go easy and focus on what feels best NEXT. And then next. And then next.

No big life plans. No five-year goals. Just: what feels right in this moment?

Her Response - Months Later

After the reading, Anne and I couldn't WAIT to hear back from her. We wanted to know - did the miscarriage pattern resonate? Did the anxiety make sense? Did any of this land?

But she didn't respond. Not for weeks. Then not for months.

Finally, MONTHS later, we got an email from her. Just one line:

"It made sense to me. Thank you."

That's it. Nothing else.

My Reflection

This one bothers me a little, to be honest. Not because I think the reading was wrong - the miscarriage pattern was too specific and too repetitive to be something I was making up. But because I have no idea if it actually helped her.

"It made sense to me" - okay, but did it change anything? Did she start choosing her socks? Did the anxiety ease up at all? Or did she just file it away as interesting information and move on?

I also wonder about the whole "first lifetime" thing. Like, how do you even verify that? There's no evidence for it. No way to prove or disprove it. She can't say "oh yeah, I remember all those times I backed out" because she wouldn't remember.

But here's what I do know: the anxiety I felt in her energy was REAL. It wasn't performance anxiety or social anxiety or situational anxiety. It was existential. Like being-alive-in-a-body-is-terrifying kind of anxiety.

And if this really is her first time being human? Then yeah, "choose your socks" is probably the most compassionate guidance spirit could give.

Start small. Start SO small. Just be here. Just be easy.

I hope she's choosing her socks. I hope it's helping. I hope she emails us again someday and tells us she's less anxious.

But I might never know. And I guess that's part of this work too - not always getting to see if what spirit shared actually made a difference.

Thanks for stopping by, if you're interested to see what theme is playing in your life schedule your reading now.

Mel

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