Mel's Musings

If your life has been hard - genuinely, relentlessly, inexplicably hard - I am not telling you that you chose this as some kind of cosmic punishment or that you should stop trying to make things better. I'm telling you that it might be by design, not your failing.

Every life is its own set of circumstances designed for whatever that soul came here to experience or master or work through. An old soul in a messy life isn't a contradiction. It might be exactly what they signed up for. The mess doesn't tell you anything about the soul inside it.

My meditation changes how I show up at work. How I show up at work changes what I bring to my meditation.

I had the room cleared out. I had the timeline figured out. I had freedom scheduled for two weeks from now. Then Spirit said two words that changed everything: surrender time. Freedom isn't on the other side of the situation resolving. It's available right now, inside the mess. Here's what I'm learning about choosing it anyway.

Spirit didn't say fix the world. Spirit said look at yours. What's actually in your life right now — the patterns, the people, the things you keep walking past — that's what's meant for you. Start there.

There are no right or wrong steps to starting on a spiritual journey. If your soul is calling, eventually you'll hear it.

Why Easy Beats Striving Every Time A few days ago at a women's circle, someone shared about feeling bad about where she is spiritually, like she should be further along in her awakening, more evolved, more... something. I told her what I'm just learning myself: Where I am is awesome. I don't need to be perfect. I don't need to be more. If I were ready for more, I'd be more. But this? This is good. Because this is easy, and easy is more important than constantly striving. For

I've been thinking a lot lately about what I'm actually here to do. For years, I thought my job was to help people. Fix things. Save my family financially. Support everyone emotionally. Use my spiritual gifts to guide people toward their healing. Be useful. Be needed. Be the one who could see what others couldn't and help them get there. And you know what happened? None of them got better. Not from all my trying. I just became more and more exhausted and sometimes, with all m